burning to emerge

It’s been a long 2+ months, I must admit. Many changes – with friends, life, work, service, self-care – some of those changes were good, some were not-so-good. But as I’ve said repeatedly, change is my constant so I go with it as it truly makes me who I am today.

I put myself on a mandated blogging hiatus since October – which was more difficult than I thought it would be as I kept thinking of things I wanted to write about, but could not. The reasons for the mandate was largely because of work and that I really needed to focus on some important tasks and let’s be honest, October is the crazy busy time of the semester for academic instruction librarians.

But, it is time for reprieve and here I am again. I do wish I could write about all the amazing life changes I’ve made these last two months and say that I’m now super healthy, in great shape, totally centered, and thin. But that is not the case. Some of that is true – I am in fact more focused and centered than I have been in a long time. And I have learned some great things about work and life – like which friends you can count on during tough times and who really cares about you, how politics on a campus really affect decisions, how collaboration with colleagues can give super amazing results, how much I miss my best friend who moved to Chicago, and unfortunately, how when the stress really hits me, really hits me, I’m the first person I give up caring for.

Whew. Some of those (especially the last one) are a little depressing. But, also eye opening. I have spent the last two weeks thinking about how I’ve totally thrown my own needs out the window in order to take care of others at times. But the good news is that I am doing so. much. better. than I have in the past. I have made some very smart decisions on what to take on and add into my life and what to say no to and what to get rid of and keep out. I’m actually pretty darn proud of myself on that one.

But, back to being focused and centered. Though I’ve had a few setbacks regarding health and wellness (that’s a whole different post), I’m back on track eating better. The past few days I’ve done well with eating decent, tasty, healthy food (with the exception of yesterday – that was just bad, bad, bad) and this morning my butt was at the Rec (the gym on campus). Yay!

And so, that’s it. Just a short little “hello, I’m back” post for you. I’ve fallen a few notches in my dedication to running, being healthy, and living a centered life but I’m back on the road to improvement. Thanks for reading – I’ll be back to posting photos, quotes, and sharing my crazy with you if you’d like to stay along for the ride.

Let me end with a favorite quote from White Oleander:

“The phoenix must burn to emerge.”

Advertisements

2 comments

  1. lavercam · December 8, 2012

    YAY!!! You’re back! I so look forward to reading your posts….you inspire me.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s